two cubes, two spheres and a triangular pyramid floating

It is all over here! I am waiting for an inner explosion. No I am not going out tonight because I want to feel it… the “thing”, which is inside me. It is heavy, there is such a tension, it does not let me study, sleep, relax. Anything I do, it is still there. It might be gone if I leave this place… I know, but then I feel it as something which I carry one with me anywhere I go. I realize it cannot be left behind just like that. I have to detach myself from it, but how?

Let it be, observe and witness its fall. It is easier said than done. But then, I have to start somewhere. I guess I cannot begin right now, because my concentration is too much focused on this kind of writing, but then in meanwhile…

…I will be back…