new members

They came from nowhere. The Universe materialized one of its parts and two new, and the only two members of the Indigo Universe are here. They seem to like one another.

it is good
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two cubes, two spheres and a triangular pyramid floating

It is all over here! I am waiting for an inner explosion. No I am not going out tonight because I want to feel it… the “thing”, which is inside me. It is heavy, there is such a tension, it does not let me study, sleep, relax. Anything I do, it is still there. It might be gone if I leave this place… I know, but then I feel it as something which I carry one with me anywhere I go. I realize it cannot be left behind just like that. I have to detach myself from it, but how?

Let it be, observe and witness its fall. It is easier said than done. But then, I have to start somewhere. I guess I cannot begin right now, because my concentration is too much focused on this kind of writing, but then in meanwhile…

…I will be back…

glass of wine on my window sill

I filled another glass with wine. I gulped it down. Now I feel it sliding through my throat, reaching my stomach. Gazing energy radiates from inside out. It is alcohol glittering with colors of anger hope and all my emotions meeting at this one point. I seize a package of cigarettes. I do not want to smoke. It peacefully lies on my table, waiting for me to take one. I promise, seriously I do … I will take one, but not now.

A feeling of destruction is easily identifiable. Lately I think about success and misery. How human species tend to terminate their lives or slow themselves down, diminish its significance, in case they feel miserable. Drugs, alcohol and tobacco, who knows what else… chocolate, cholesterol... An impression that once you feel down, depressed, you fall into a trap of self destruction dominates my thoughts. You do everything to burry it down, wait for a new reborn, regeneration… reaching some kind of happiness through transformation and destruction. Get up stand up, don’t give up your rights… all right, here we go… I get it! It is paradox to say that the way out of it is getting up, standing and facing all of the depression through activity. Lying does not help much.

I take another nip of my wine. I put the glass on a window sill. The evening is calm, only birds’ pipe outvoices the soft sound of my chilled out music. The world can be a beautiful place to live. Just look around, listen, feel the fresh air coming through an open window. Do you see the Moon? Now I can, but even if you don’t, Believe me it is still there…

to be born after all

Being born as a human being, the eminent light of spiritual endeavor becomes the most significant driving force in human life. The world is a meeting point for all individuals to interact with each other, grow and engage into something that overreaches mere human existence.

When a soul meets its body, it becomes he or she as an element of the universe. The world had existed before he was born. It exists while he lives, and it will exist also after he will die. The period of 70 years of his materialized existence is a time when he experiences a life long journey, when he steps into societal structures that predates him in its broader sense. He has chances to shape a face of his world, but after he dies the world goes on

The world does not have a beginning neither has it an end. Since ever human beings were born into its structures. Whether it was thousands years ago, an individual never enters the world and creates it from scratch. Adam and Eva while entering the gates of Garden of Eden, already stepped into a pre-created world. Let’s take an example of a 17th century person and compare it to the modern man. The seventeenth century man was born in a family he grew up in a specific society, which was run by specific rules of that society. Older members in his society were composing the structure which he was becoming aware of. However, it has to be understood that also those members continued on work of their predecessors, and by doing so they sustain development of that society. Contemporary man is born. He grows in a family if he is lucky, then he goes to schools, high school and may be even a university becomes a place of his residence. By doing so he enters societal structures, which predates him. Such a man has chance to shift the development of those structures, brings new lights into the world, however after he dies, there will be other men who will continue in the process of this continuous flow.

These few lines shall indicate the (in)significance of human life in comparison to our all mighty universe. It is composed out of so many elements that it is impossible to see the entire picture form a man like stand. It does not neglect the importance of change and progress in societies, initiated in many cases by a man. The universe evolves from something into something else. A man is born and he dies, during his life a new man is born, and it goes on and on. After all, it is this almighty process, which makes a day meaningful.